Friday, June 23, 2017

Is it misogynistic if it's true?

-Thought of the day-
Seriously it must be so hard to be a woman. I'm so glad I am a man. Women are so scared, so worried, so obstinate and contemplative. It's like everything they agree to, every time they simply agree or say yes, it's like they are surrendering their souls, so their default answer is negative, their go-to response is no, and then when they distance themselves from pretty much everyone, they have no idea why or how it happened. It's not their fault, it's what they were taught. It's just sad.
-is it misogynistic if it's true

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In my head is an energy source. Bit by bit it influences my universe. When I ignore it or fail to utilize this energy it builds up, it stagnates, it becomes toxic.
It leaks out and feeds the chaos.
I don't like chaos.

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My Back is Killing me this morning....

I'm not even joking.

I think my back brace is worn out because it's really not offering any support anymore.

I left it home this morning because it sucks, and now I am waiting until 8 am to call the doctor and see about getting another (hopefully better) one.

I have been talking to this girl named Tina and I thought perhaps we were going places, combining energies, manifesting a unified destiny, but now I'm starting to wonder. It feels like she might be fading.

Last night I cooked dinner for Greg and I think it came out pretty good, and I haven't slept more than 5 hours at a time in longer than I can remember.

It's supposed to be another hot humid bastard here in Houston, and although I can feel that my energy is on the rise I'm not sure what to do with it.

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Tina.
This chick with an amazing energy that she is afraid of.


Pork Chops I made for my son and I that I thought came out well.



Thursday, June 22, 2017

It's been a long time since I was here...


It's been a long time since I was here, a long time.

Things have changed too. My wife divorced me, and that sucks, but during the last 3 years of the marriage she was basically erasing me and with the demise of the marriage there has been a resurgence of the Blacksheep aka self, and I am figuring out that I'm not quite as sucky as I thought I was.

It turns out people find me interesting and fairly good looking, and I will even go so far as to say sexually attractive.

For a long time, I didn't really feel any of those things, a loveless marriage taxes a person heavily, and the biggest tax is that of your self-worth and confidence.

I am blogging on the job because I hurt my back a few weeks ago, and it seems they have no light duties at all so I basically clock in, and hide out in an office and do absolutely nothing.

By nothing I mean chat on my phone, look at Facebook, sext if I can find someone into it, (and I usually can) and just wait for the hours to pass.

That is itself is extremely frustrating, but what can I do? My back is really fucked off so quitting isn't an option because then I would have no job and a fucked up back.


Anyway, I'm trying to stay positive.