It's been a long time since I was here, a long time.
Things have changed too. My wife divorced me, and that sucks, but during the last 3 years of the marriage she was basically erasing me and with the demise of the marriage there has been a resurgence of the Blacksheep aka self, and I am figuring out that I'm not quite as sucky as I thought I was.
It turns out people find me interesting and fairly good looking, and I will even go so far as to say sexually attractive.
For a long time, I didn't really feel any of those things, a loveless marriage taxes a person heavily, and the biggest tax is that of your self-worth and confidence.
I am blogging on the job because I hurt my back a few weeks ago, and it seems they have no light duties at all so I basically clock in, and hide out in an office and do absolutely nothing.
By nothing I mean chat on my phone, look at Facebook, sext if I can find someone into it, (and I usually can) and just wait for the hours to pass.
That is itself is extremely frustrating, but what can I do? My back is really fucked off so quitting isn't an option because then I would have no job and a fucked up back.
Anyway, I'm trying to stay positive.
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